~Be yourself; everyone else is already taken~Oscar Wilde
Lately for me, it may seem like life exists between calamities. Something big goes wrong, and I deal with emotions and the fall out and the problems, and then there is peace for a while.
Then it seems like inevitably something big and noteworthy goes wrong again. Yes, I may have had my share of troubles of late. I laugh, cry, and shrug it off, and things wind down a bit. Facing trouble is a gift I was born with! It followed me through out my childhood, my teen years and adulthood, I always wondered why? I do not look for it, usually I can be sitting quietly on a park bench and it finds me. The pigeons attack me for food or I get covered by their poop! I know that ‘s not trouble, but it is if you have to go somewhere and need to change and you arrive late.
There are thoughts out there to help cope with life: ‘Have Faith’, ‘See yourself more powerful that what is effecting you’, and ‘Picture yourself out of trouble into a positive place’. Do these self-help ideas really work? Or are they a money making idea?
My friend’s book cases are full of these books. She buys books on solving every kind of problems that have effected her. She seen more doctors that I can think of with symptoms of her mental malady. I refuse to be pulled into that cycle. I instead go opposite, I read something funny, see a movie or just leave it. I need to deal with my troubles but, I deal with it one step at the time as they arrive. I get caught up in the fast frenetic pace of those troubles, this is not the kind of pace that I’m confortable with. I like to take my time, and truly absorb whatever options need to be considered. Sometimes I pause too long and these troubles are worst! I end up feeling displeased with myself.
I was urged to change, what changes can you make when it’s in your nature? Our make up was framed when we were trained by our parents, our church and teachers. Then when all becomes overwhelming you start to sprout and you become the weed you supposed to be!
Always have I walked to the beat of a different drummer. This was trouble for me. My doctor told my parents I’m artistic and I’m dominated by the right side of the brain! ( that is a total different story for another day) then he explored the idea I may be dyslexic, that opened another can of worms with my troubles! Now I see things backwards! How can I be backwards when I’m one of the forward thinkers of out time? Do you know that is trouble for me? Ho yes, I can’t even have an opinion I get into trouble. Therefore I stay quiet! Then I’m in trouble because I do not speak up! I usually hide in books, movies and those characters are my best friends, they are perfect for they are heros and just and save the world!
~Finally, from so little sleeping and so much reading, his brain dried up and went completely out of his mind~ from Don Quijote de La Mancha by Cervantes.
Well then when I walk away from my troubles instead of confronting them I was labeled as ‘ there’s something wrong with her!’ Ha! Better have something wrong with me than to think like those minds!
But give me a trouble someone else is facing, and I will pull all my resources to help! that is considered bad too! It’s called interfering, know it all, show off…… I can’t win!
So here I am, I let go and live in the moment, I face life one step at a time and do not have a care in the world now. Never will I be who I was, never will I let my life be as it was, to dominate me! No! I will be me, the only person that likes me is me, and I like her well enough!
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