Don’t waste words on people who deserve your silence. Sometimes the most powerful thing you can say is nothing at all.
Some few months ago, I was made aware in my place of employment that I had more enemies than friends. When I shrugged it off, it infurated them more. Then little things started to happen. I realized that come rain or snow they are not going to stop at this. I started the wheels in my head in motion. Everyday I would play certain cenarios. Then one day I realized it was taking too much effort. So I went along with the game. One day one of the guilty party asked ” Don’t you want to do something about it?” I shrugged my shoulders and said ” why would I work for and with people like these? Life is life, let it happen!”
Two weeks later it happened, just as I projected it. I was even all packed up ready to go.
When it was all over I thanked them and left. I was asked why I did not speak up? My answer was” They did not deserve my words or my voice. My silence will make them wonder why?”
I started my quixotic interlude for the summer.
Today after letting the Windmills of my Mind turn for these past months I realized I had lost myself there. I was so obsessed with duty, I forgot to be me.
The me that was adventurous, the me that believed in magic, the me that wanted to travel.
Today the extend of me is the unemployment line and the library looking for jobs. This blog has brought some life into me, I have shared and all my new friends have been superb. You have laught and cried with me I think. My neighbors are mean, my family is crazy and unavailable and my friends ( who were my friends) have long left, for I have nothing to offer them. I’ m one month into despair. No job, no funds, no medical coverage, and maybe no place to go.
But, on the cheery side I can still try to make it if I keep my chin up and start again like all those years ago on a new journey.
This adventure will be different, it will be all about fun! My alcyon days will be here again. The time spent with people of no consequence will be a bad memory to write a blog about!
Thank you for visiting,