I place high value on peace and serenity. I avoid problems for the uncomfortable feelings it accompanies.
I sometimes shut down and don’t see or speak to anyone for days. This is an acceptable venue on the ones that know me intimately. But, for others it scares the hell out of them! They think I’m depressed, trying to commit suicide or starve myself. No such thing! Have you have had an influx of calls from family, friends and wrong numbers? The friends discuss all their freaking problems and family is scheduling you for events months from now! Enough! The phone gets turned off the doorbell is unanswered and Mail piles up! There that is my solution.
The book I borrowed it’s read, the movie I downloaded is viewed and the recepie I have been dying to create is created and shared with a glass of wine and cadlelit dinner.
When I emerge, I am yelled at, and asked if there is something wrong with me! Yes there is! Leave me the freaking alone! All my life I used to work and home, never traveled and always made time for everyone. No one makes time for me. I choose to make time for me ‘ life is short!’ Today I want to be free to explore all that I can in solitude and joy. Plus my Mother has Dementia, my brother is on his way to a new wife and probably end up in devorce #3. I need this time to find myself before the obligations of life start falling on my shoulders again.
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Image curtesy of Pablo Picasso, Blue Nude 1902