Taking everyone ‘s advise I called a friend who knows a therapist, set up an appointment and had a concil or rathen a preview of one.
She wanted to see me the same day I called! She either has high regard for my friend who called her, or she’s had a lot of free time!
When I reached her office I thought I was stepping into a doll house, everything had white cotton covers, that is the settee and chairs, plants, I liked that, but a busy room with tall windows overlooking a wild garden with tall trees!
I spent 1/2 hour just filling paperwork, and making a list of 50 of my favorite activities. Why? Not know!
Finally she came in and sat and looked at my paperwork, looked at me and asked how was I?
Once the preliminaries out of the way she asked:
” So your depressed? What gives you the idea?”
After of 50 minutes of bla, bla, bla… I left more confused that when I went in?
Welcome to the world of psychotherapy!
Windmills of My Mind 
Why do you think you’re depressed? I don’t know, I’m not qualified but maybe wanting to kill you will tell you all you need to know…
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More confused….
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Don’t over think it
It’s too early in the game
Depression is not one
Size fits all each us
Has specifics
Each of us have
Characteristics
Hang in there
As Sheldon Always
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As always you say the right thing, xx Solitaire
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Sometimes quality answers require investigation that takes some time. Communicate your honest feelings with the therapist to make certain you are both on the same page. Change (both positive and negative) require a PROCESS. This process often requires PATIENCE. If you need tangible evidence of “change,” ask your therapist for tangible improvements along with a tangible RANGE in time you should witness these events. This makes each of you accountable to each other.
Wishing you much success.
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Thanks Jonathan, Solitaire
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Give it a few more sessions before you give up on counseling. Look at it this way… better for her to ask how you feel and what you think is going on, than for her to assume on the first visit that she has all the answers or even knows you yet. Your insights are what is important and her goal is to help you sort through them, not to “fix” you. Much love to you as you explore yourself and find your joy. ❤
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Thank you Diana, your words bring me comfort. ❤️Solitaire
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