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Silence

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Don’t waste words on people who deserve your silence.  Sometimes the most powerful thing you can say is nothing at all.

Some few months ago, I was made aware in my place of employment that I had more enemies than friends. When I shrugged it off, it infurated them more. Then little things started to happen. I realized that come rain or snow they are not going to stop at this. I started the wheels in my head in motion. Everyday I would play certain cenarios. Then one day I realized it was taking too much effort. So I went along with the game. One day one of the guilty party asked ” Don’t you want to do something about it?” I shrugged my shoulders and said ” why would I work for and with people like these? Life is life, let it happen!”
Two weeks later it happened, just as I projected it. I was even all packed up ready to go.
When it was all over I thanked them and left. I was asked why I did not speak up? My answer was” They did not deserve my words or my voice. My silence will make them wonder why?”
I started my quixotic interlude for the summer.

Today after letting the Windmills of my Mind turn for these past months I realized I had lost myself there. I was so obsessed with duty, I forgot to be me.
The me that was adventurous, the me that believed in magic, the me that wanted to travel.
Today the extend of me is the unemployment line and the library looking for jobs. This blog has brought some life into me, I have shared and all my new friends have been superb. You have laught and cried with me I think. My neighbors are mean, my family is crazy and unavailable and my friends ( who were my friends) have long left, for I have nothing to offer them. I’ m one month into despair. No job, no funds, no medical coverage, and maybe no place to go.
But, on the cheery side I can still try to make it if I keep my chin up and start again like all those years ago on a new journey.
This adventure will be different, it will be all about fun! My alcyon days will be here again. The time spent with people of no consequence will be a bad memory to write a blog about!

Thank you for visiting,
Solitaire

22 thoughts on “Silence”

  2. you know the old saying, one door closes to have another, better one open….how can you go wrong by bettering yourself and your situation, sometimes it may look bleak, but you have your health, your head held high and I am positive things will happen for you, your a free spirit riding on the shirt tails of the wind my friend….its all good….

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  3. You made a decision, stood firm, and waiting for positive things to happen…and they will. I’m sure your situation seems dark at this time of woes, but stay strong, and positive. God has a plan set in motion for you! Blessings and peace!✌

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  7. It’s easy to lose your way
    I am experiencing this now
    There is too much going on with my body and my mind
    There are times I just don’t know where to turn
    I am lost in all of this uncertainty
    Thank you for visiting
    As always Sheldon

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  8. I have been fired from more jobs than I can even remember! It hurts. I’ve managed to hang on to my current job for about a year and a half, which is good for me! I did two things right: One, after my boss called me in to tell me that people were complaining about me, I started sending her an email every time I saw someone else screw up. I sent her email if someone yelled at me for any reason, saying they yelled at me, and it made me feel bad, and here’s my side of it. I sent her email if I felt like I was doing someone else’s work for them. I sent her email every time I found out anything I thought she would enjoy rubbing someone else’s nose in. And two, I quit talking, completely. The only words out of my mouth were what I absolutely had to say to do my job, period. I quit making eye contact with people and started looking at the ground all the time. And I started looking for a new job.

    I got two job offers, but I didn’t take either one. And everyone totally got off my back at my current job! Ha, ha! I mean, I know that I’m different, I don’t have a lot in common with too many people, so I’m bound to have some friction. But I just felt like people were dog-piling on me, it that wasn’t right.

    Rely on this, Solitaire: there’s a lot of people out here who are sending a lot of love your way! ❤ ❤ ❤

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  10. Your story saddens me, for there are many that can relate to the work place drama and unnecessary. I am sorry, you felt you needed to leave. However, I want you to know that those friends of yours that were only your friends based on what you can provide, was not worth having you in their lives. I also want you to know that you have a great deal to offer; your writing alone is testimony to that. So, please don’t ever think that about yourself. Keep the faith, belief and positive vibes flowing to others and I have no doubt something good will be happening for you sooner than you think. God knows are struggles and pain and that which don’t kill us, only makes us stronger. You already have the strength and He will be providing all your needs, just keep the faith and believe. What a great post!

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  11. You have my admiration in the way you took control of your own life. In the past I would have reacted in many different ways, but not in silence, ranging from facing up to them to instantly walking out. Well done 😀

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